Today, not a great start. Feeling depress. Out of no where, I removed the necklace given by someone special and put back my old necklace.
I have no courage to wear that anymore. It weakens me. It makes me think too much. Yesterday I feel great when I was wearing it, today it just depressed me too much. I feel like something so heavy in my heart. So sooo heavy till I couldn't lift up myself to go for class.
If it is mean to be mine, it will be, no matter what happen, it will still be mine. If it is not, there is nothing I can do.
I do not have the courage to put back the necklace on. I am really full of jealousy, envy, to the MAX!
No courage to feel the love. No courage to face the fact. No courage to go on...
I'm running away from life....
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